just another boring day..

hari ini aku terasa sangat bosan..kenape eh? itulah soalan yg sering berlegar kt kepala aku ni..nape la hr ni super duper bosan kan..tp bila 2 pikir aku rase jawapannye sbb aku duk sorang2 kt bilik tgkt 2 ni..sume colegue aku ade kt clinic huhuk sedeinye bile kne campak kt sini..tp patutnye aku happy coz ade byk mase nk siapkn keje yg dh lame tetangguh tu..tp bese la bile kemalasan menguasai diri...asyik nk cari alasan kn...entah bila la nk brubah..mungkin aku ni jenis yg x boleh duk sorang2 sbb bile sorang2 aku jd bosan yg teramat..bile dh bosan satu keje pon xjd..kalu weekend plak bile aku rase boring duk umah sorang2 pasti mindaku ni cepat je cari jalan penyelesaian..kaedah yg paling berkesan pd aku x lain dan bukan adalah shopping bak kate rebecca bloomwood dlm confessions of shopaholic, when i shopping i feel better, the world get better..no doubt that shopping can be a quick and fast acting remedy to ease your boredom..at least it works well on me..and i can't be any better without it..

Looking for a hero

Hero by Mariah Carey

There's a hero if you look inside your heart.
You don't have to be afraid of what you are.
There's an answer if you reach into your soul
and the sorrow that you know will melt away.
And then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.
So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you.
It's a long road when you face the world alone.
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold.
You can find love if you search within yourself
and the emptiness you felt will disappear.
And then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.
So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you.
Lord knows dreams are hard to follow,
But don't let anyone tear them away.
Hold on, there will be tommorow.
In time you'll find the way.
And then a hero comes along
with the strength to carry on
and you cast your fears aside
and you know you can survive.
So, when you feel like hope is gone
look inside you and be strong
and you'll finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you.
That a hero lies in you,
that a hero lies in you.

take time listen to this..

Oh i'm too addicted to this song..can't stop humming to it's rhyme..

The Climb by Miley Cyrus

Songwriters: Alexander, J; Mabe, J;

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

the lyric is just so beautiful and meaningful to me..it help boosting your spirit when you feel down..so cherish the song

how many friends you have?

You may have hundreds of friend in your friendster, facebook or even myspace, but how many of them that you actually know? that's the question that always lingers in my mind. i have quite a number of friends in my list, thanks to the continuous invites and requests that recived from both people that i already know and some from strangers who want to befriend with me.sure i'm so glad to accept..but when looking back at those so called 'friends' in my list, i actually wonder if they ever remember that i'm exist..the same goes to the names and numbers that i've stored in my phone..i don't even know if they still in used or not..why?i guess i finally get the answer..

during my last birthday, i waited anxiously to know who will be the first person to wish me..i stayed awake untill 12 am as usually people start to wish birthday at 12..but no..there'se no wishes at all..not even from my mom or dad..so sad..

then in the morning i recived the first wish from a friend, indeed a very close one..i know this girl long time ago since we were in school..and we instantly clique together troughout the college life even we didn't go to the same uni..but i know she always there for me..

later i got a call from mak and walid..walid even sang the birthday song to me..oh sweet of him..they quickly apologized for not wishing me earlier saying that they miscalculated the date..they forgot that it was 1st april, my birthday..nway apology accepted..i was too happy to sulk..

then follows by a few other birthday wishes from my collegues, friends and family..but overall it was not as happening as last year when i celebrated my 24th birthday..i got fewer wishes compared to last year. it means only a few people remember my birthday this year..i don't like it as it made me feel unappreciated and soo lonely

i was thinking may be they were just too busy with works, studies and stuff..but then i questioned myself,do i ever remember their birthday..and yes the answer is yes i don't remember all of them..so serve me right i guess.

how many friend that i actually call or text a message..merely two or three of them..and only if they make the first call or send me the sms first..basically everything i do is just as a response to them..never really make the firs move..why? may be because simply can't think of anything to say..i only communicate with people on purpose..most of it related to work..very rare for the pleasure of getting to know my friends..it's just something that i'm not good at..something that i need to learn and a skill to be polished because i know if i don't make an effort to reach them how they gonna reach me in return..

so should i change my strategy now in order get more birthday wish next year?...

Happy belated birthday dear,

lurve,

yourself.